I seem to have come down with something nasty, and it's making me feel like crap today. Coupled with the fact that I'm "caught between jobs" and also a major holiday, it's going to be a complicated few weeks.
I also got news from Nintendo last week that they will NOT support our children's charity, which was kind of devastating. Like they couldn't afford to pitch us a couple hundred bucks for hospitals. Fssssh. Whatever, we'll keep raising it ourselves anyway.
I've been really struggling to write lately, and part of it is because I have a perfectionist attitude. I've heard time and again, "Just skip the hard parts and keep going. Come back to them later -- don't let them freeze you up." But the thing is, I'm recalling the last major screenplay I was at work on and how I hit a major snag early in and tried exactly that. "Let's just power through with whatever comes out and keep moving." But here's what happened: I ended up writing story events that I don't think are probably effective, and a full scene of the most painful dialog I've ever written. Seriously, it makes me cringe every time I glance at it, because I can't believe what a capacity I have to write bad work when I'm in an "off" mood. How can I move on with the rest of the screenplay when there's an absolute groaner of a scene back toward the beginning, and certain events may later hinge on it?
So that's my dilemma. My guess is that I should "keep writing" anyway... but, like I said, I don't even want to open that notebook knowing some of what's inside right now. It's shameful and awful and would be better off not existing, and that's a risk I'm too scared to take: making work that not only doesn't live up to my expectations, but also makes people DISpleased. It's an awkward psychological phobia that I'm kind of still working on. -_-; I think I need to lose it to be a successful writer.
On the flip side, my editing seems to be faring fine right now, and I just recorded a new song the other day for a DVD menu. It's about the goofiest song I've worked on, so I'm excited to discover how it turns out once my post prod partner gets done with it. This one plays with something new I've not tried before: a capella/barber shop music where all instruments are replaced with human voices.
I find that music incredibly irritating, which is precisely why I thought it'd fit this DVD so well. I'll try to make the song public once it's done.
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